east west

two week's notice

i put my two weeks in at work today. it felt oddly grown-up and frightening. but, now that it's over, i can look forward to a new job....an actual career. i think i still need to make sure i'm not getting my value from my occupation. all this talk about healthy narcicissm (sp?), i know it's out there, but it's a fine line. is it selfish to look for something that will better yourself - the motives are selfish (a better life for me), so wouldn't that be wrong?
i don't know. but i have a lot of encouragement. and dad called early this morning to say he was praying for me and he feels good about it. i think i can count the times that my dad has called on one hand (sure, i'll talk whenever i call home, or when they call me, but it's typically mom who initiates it). and i feel that this is the way to go.
i guess i could choose to be completely selfless, which would mean that i wouldn't even work. because working is doing something that gives you worth (both figuratively and literally), and isn't striving for something for ourselves selfish in nature? but we're ingrained with a motivation to create and to take care of things. i guess somewhere along the way, those internal notions became things that you were compensated for doing. and they eventually turned into jobs.
it seems that very few things have selfless intentions. even if it appears selfless, it may be unconsciously to give you a good feeling on the inside (e.g.' i gave a man my bus pass today' - appears selfless, but maybe i did it to get the high of generosity, etc. etc.)
i don't know.
but i'm switching jobs nonetheless.

posted by jessica @ 3:26 PM