east west

you are the reason for all of this

Were it not for surprise sunshine, I don't know that I'd make it through the winter unscathed. If there was any doubt about it before, we're now making tentative plans to move towards Montana or Colorado in the next two years. Weather shouldn't be a source of anxiety, and I'm simply becoming ridiculous about it. I'm also idealizing everything about life in the Bitterroots, but all of that is to say- this weekend's sunlight was much needed.

Yesterday, Katie and I took Montana on a hike near Mount Hood....very few people were out on the trail, and we were rewarded with a 360-degree view of Hood, St. Helens, Rainier, Adams, and Jefferson once we reached the top. Sometimes I forget the mountains exist - they're the reason for all of this rain, but they're so damn beautiful that you can't fault them for it.


We went hunting for chanterelles up by Larch Mountain again this morning....There's something that you gain from breathing in that earthy smell, being a part of the abnormal silence that comes from being surrounded by old coniferous trees, and getting your hands dirty while gathering your own food.

Spent the late afternoon on a walk alone through Rose City Park, accompanied by scattered thoughts....thinking about listening to Waterdeep more often, working to figure out what church actually means, considering talking to God more frequently, realizing that I have muddled the difference between tradition and religion, and trying to discern where healthy narcissism ends and selfishness begins. And now I'm here. With Neil Halstead and a cup of hot tea - but very few answers.

posted by jessica @ 6:58 PM